“Now we live with great expectation, and we have a priceless inheritance—an inheritance that is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay.”
1 Peter 1:3-4
Like it or not, every day we face the unknown. Some changes we greet with joy, some with despair. We may see change coming from a long way off or it might come when least expected.
As a young woman, I thought I saw myself as willing to embrace change. I would throw my arms open to the Lord and say, ‘Here I am, send me.’
And then he did. Enthusiastically, I moved to the UK to work with Agapé, married a handsome Anglo-Irish guy, and expected life and ministry to immediately produce fruit.
Then the reality of culture stress crushed me like a ton of bricks. I mourned the loss of my old life, my family and friends. Despite it being a ‘good change,’ those first years of marriage were tough. People didn’t seem to ‘get’ me and God felt cold and distant. There were a few years of undiagnosed pain and depression. God ultimately used that dark time to draw me close and shape me into who I am today. But to be honest, it’s something I wouldn’t want to go through again in a hurry.
Now, when I say to the Lord, ‘Here I am, send me,’ I do so with a deeper understanding of what it could cost. And my need for a future hope following an all-seeing and unchanging God has become real.
Do you find yourself facing the future with hope, fear or something in between?
First published in the 2015 Winter issue of Agapé MOVE magazine.
The views expressed in this blog post are personal to the author and do not necessarily reflect those of the GC network.